Reflections

What exactly is it that burns inside of us? 
Passion? 
Drive? 
Fear?
What is it that keeps us moving in the face of all that we experience? What is our fate, if today's presence seems so grim?  Do we really want to know? Is our heart still truly beating, or is this all a mirage? 

I'll erase my footprints as I walk with each step creating the forgotten path -only flames will tail behind me now. I am preparing to start setting the world on fire -with company or all alone. This is the path I behold.

'Start The Revolution'

After extensively listening to the new Attack Attack! This is War album a few times straight through I have come to the conclusion that it is really pretty good. There is a lot of meaning and work obviously put into this album. I personally would have preferred more synth and piano and good beats that they are known for like in The Confrontation, or The Betrayal, but more so like in their previous albums (Like a little bit of Someday Came Suddenly anyone??). But obviously that becomes hard when you focus a lot on creating the proper music around lyrics and an album itself- an album which is the turning point for Attack Attack! at this part of their game in the music world. Don't get me wrong, it's still there, just not as prominent and noticeable. No techno-y 'break downs' or 'interludes'. As the band that they are they obviously won't cut it out completely, I just feel that it's a little incomplete without a little more of it. The vocal content is also a bit different, but it is good, and I feel it compliments nicely to the album. I am very satisfied with this album and I think it's really good, and that Attack Attack! did a good job. Just my thoughts on it but I say Thumbs up to these guys, the work put into this has been duly noted with me. 

Also, The Used have recently released a new song, which makes me a giddy little happy girl, for I am in love with the Used. Check it out. 

The Used - I Come Alive <--Click Me!

Other then that, all is calm for now. My weekend had been spent sore, tired, and sick. But that gave me time to realize how much I desperately need more sleep and how I can't continue to sit around and daydream a fantasy world when I have my own dreams I'd like to accomplish. So as I re-gain all the energy that was wiped out of me, I find myself taking steps to regain my focus on the things I need to. Step by step I'll will work on putting myself when I need to be. Things will not accomplish with daydreams, but accomplishments will replace the daydreams, with dreams come true. I'm not expecting it to be easy. My life has certainly not been so thus far, but if I work hard and focus where I need to, I'm sure it will be easier then fighting nightmares. This is where I light your candle shall you follow. This is where my trials and triumphs begin.

Stand Tall, Little One

Life let's a lot of people down, I am included in this. And there are many the days I want to give up everything and walk away, but knowing that what I want to do is to make a difference keeps me grounded, knowing that I already have it a little easier then most, keeps me more humbled.

"I'm Beaten, Bruised, and Bleeding"

This song relates into my first post. "This time is not my perspective." But how do I get out, and see the things I need to see and accomplish the things I want to do? As long as I am not at ease, this will bother me.

Attack Attack! The Wretched  <--Click It!! 


Give it a listen. Maybe your perspective will want to open up too. I know this is fueling mine now.

Always A Part Of Me, Until The Very Last Day.

     It's been 3 years yesterday since I lost a friend. I remember finding out, yet never reacting to hearing those words until I saw her death announced on the news, in which I replayed that not-even 2 minute segment over and over and over again, crying as fast as my eyes would. And all too quickly do we pick up the pieces we have and we move on with our lives, the world doesn't stop turning, you can't too. But one thing we don't stop and think, or even realize all too often is that pieces of us fuse with pieces of those around you. One person in special to you for one reason or another, but that doesn't change a thing, they become a part of you. You can never see them again, but you still have that piece of them that they gave you, carefully picked, in which you exchanged to them a piece of you. And, yes, the world turns and pain comes and goes, but there is still that part of you, connected to them. Always. Today is a careful reminder of how influenced  we are by our surroundings. And most days, some of us will never even notice. We carry it with us, not paying attention, until that moment comes around, and we take it in, keep our fill, and save it again for another day, another time, another place when me may need it again. I only hope that even before I die, I have instilled the pieces of me among many people, so even as time passes people will think of me, and the impression I have left on them from time to time, even if I see them again. So this is my tribute to a friend whom may be gone, but even so today, she has proven that there is still many a reason why she is still here, and that is through the pieces of her that have been sown upon us. Pieces of us have been instilled into the  innocent hearts of others who have let us in. Keep cool my friend, you are still very missed.