"Some people are meant to be in the holes they dig."
I won't go into details, but I compared a lady as a 'black energy' and 'a relative of a black widow.'
As bad as it sounds, it's true. She's burned so many 'bridges' and ruined lives, and is still trying to take people with her as she goes.
But that made me think, do I belong in the holes I find myself in?
My latest one is I JUST got my inspections, oil change, tire rod and two tires done on my jeep.
Cost me $410. Just about anything I had saved up from all my hard work for little pay working 3 part-time jobs. I make shit, and I was leaving early in the morning and coming home late at night. Daily.
Now Christmas is over, and I've become stressed (probably partially anxious as well due to the sudden change), feeling un-worked, broke, and now have to find a way to save up $600 to fix a problem with my transmission before it's destroyed.
And I'm left wondering what I can do to get that money, since I'm working much less, with my crappy pays.
I thought about selling photography and artwork. Some thought I've tossed around before.
I'll give it a go, and do what I can. But I need something else. More means to make money.
Any ideas to help?
If my transmission goes, I'm out a car, can't get to work, still have to pay my loan on it, and basically, royally screwed.Did I deserve to be in this hole, am I a black energy for myself?
Sometimes I have to wonder.
I've done a few variations of this drawing.
"Iveen" -Pen and Ink
Found it suiting for my mood.
XoXXo
Cooper
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